Kiss Good Bye

You give your family member or friends a kiss goodbye but you never think it will be the last. You may say I will see you later or bye love you knowing that you will see them again. But the fact to that is you never know. Today I gave my aunt a kiss good bye but this good bye was forever until I get to heaven. As I kissed her hairless head which she lost from cemo and hugged her skinn and bone body  I was sad to say the least. To look into her glazed over eyes I still saw the strongest women my aunt. Not caring what she looks like and she is still be aunt. Knowing that her body my not me alive and working but I know that her spirit is very much alive. That right know she is looking down at us happy and smiling and not in pain. Actually she would probably hit me if she saw me crying. But take this and apply this to your life. When you say good bye actually mean it and when you hug anyone goodbye actually hug them. I know from now on in my life I will always mean it. I always thought it was weird when my cousin would kiss me on the cheek and give me hug. But know I fully understand. I know that my aunt is at peace and prolly hanging with Jesus right now but I sure miss her a lot.

-Jamie Lee

Life is Never Easy

In life things come and go. Pets, friends, and family. Sometimes they are there and sometimes they're not. But let me just tell you treasure the moments when they are there because that might be the last time you will see them. People take seeing there friends and family for granted like they will always be here. NEWS FLASH they wont. I am sorry to say but ever one dies. But its our choice to a life after death. Everything I just said I have learned the hard way. In my life it seems like there is no easy way out of anything or nothing is ever easy. Right know is one of the hardest events I have ever had to go through. My aunt has cancer. And right know its to the point of sitting by her side and waiting for the moment that she goes to meet her father in heaven. To see her lying there skin and bones barely holding on is hard. To not be in control and taking over the problem. Not being able to fix anything is killing me. I just have to sit there. I wish I could just take all of her pain away so that I can see the women she used to be and see her kids and grandkids happy. I do have to say she is the strongest women ever. She has proven the doctors wrong and she is a fighter. Not just with this sickness with everything. The things she has went through is incredible she has never ever given up. She keeps her faith strong and is a pray warrior. She is the one of the few that has brought this family together. At first for my family it was hard because we never used to be apart of this family and so there are hard feelings in the family about us. But she was the one that welcomed us and made us feel loved and that she cared no matter what anyone said or thought. But through the hurt and pain good things come out of it. Sometimes it is hard to see. But trust me there is something GOOOD out of everything bad.
-Jamie Leeann